“Forty Days and Forty Nights with Jesus” Days 1-7

My “40 days & 40 nights” journey with Jesus begins…

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God and the Word was God (John 1:1)…” Gotcha, no I’m kidding but not really, trust me there is a connection towards the end.

Day one was “meh”, it had just the right amount of biblical references and phrases mixed with an inspirational “spiritual universe” type of spin. In terms of eradicating fear, strife, malice, and so forth. “He”, meaning Jesus, informs us that during the 40 days and 40 nights we will receive support from “him”, the angels, teachers and guides throughout the transformation process. As well as we should hold onto love, happiness, goodness, beauty, as such will be the catalyst for an energetic revolution. Then, 5 D Consciousness was spoke of and at that point I was brought to a screeching halt. I thought to myself, this cannot be another “spirituality video”, I rolled my eyes pretty hard at the thought.

Meanwhile, let me define 5 D Consciousness, it is essentially a higher frequency where one experiences joy and gratitude in the now without having to search for anything outside oneself. Understanding that nothing else matters but the now, this present moment, knowing that God is within us. One can manifest the life one desires and/or detest. It is all within us, we control our destiny. To maintain this frequency or to operate in this frequency, one has to operate in LOVE and DEVOTION, meaning devoid of yourself.

In layman’s terms, 5D frequency is:

“…Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.  This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.  On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets. (Matthew 22:37-40)”

Makes you wonder. Now, look harder… (in my “Rafiki” voice, the wise Mandrill from Disney’s “The Lion King”)

After getting over the “no not another spiritual video”, I started to become relaxed, receptive, and eager to hear what was going to be discussed throughout this journey, now knowing all that was spoken was everything I stood for and believed in so far. The lessons from ACIM (refer to the previous blog) we are to do each day requires you to search within yourself, locating those deeply rooted issues one tries so hard to cover up. Quickly, I figured out that it was love I lacked, not love for others but for myself. On a scale, I am on the negative side for self-love. In which led to an inability to think positively of myself, stand up for myself and have the confidence to accomplish goals, fulfill passions, purposes and so forth.

Unsure that this is truly Jesus, I do know that I need these 40 days and 40 nights for self reflection and inventory. In fact, beneficial to my journey, each night we are to say a prayer allowing Jesus, our guides and teachers to come visit us via dream to help make sense of questions or issues we may be experiencing during this time. We are urged to have a dream journal to keep track of the dreams we may have during the 40 nights.

So, new terms or phrases…. Of course, by the 3rd day I started coming up with my own terminologies & sayings, oh you should have known that was coming. Here’s one to think about: P.A.C.T. – meaning Pray, Affirm, Confirm, and Transform, this is my daily goal throughout these 40 days and nights as well as the rest of my life: I will make a P.A.C.T. However, Jesus’ goal is for us during this transformation is to become more authentic, have clarity, and live in truth, A.C.T., this journey is an internal one.

Looking inward, we must be able to address our ego. It’s not an easy feat dealing with ego especially since we have dealt with our ego all of our lives. However, it is something one must do in order to truly live a happy life and to properly manifest the life we desire or fulfill our life purposes. Through meditation we connect with our higher self, in essence, we tap into God within us. In which, we then become one mind, one conscience, and not having to look for anything outside of us.

E.G.O. – Erase the Greediness of Oneself, yes I created another one. So whenever your ego appears, just think about it in Queen Bee’s terminology.

Furthermore, this journey has started to truly connect and resonate with me. Although this challenge took place about 4 months ago, each day was spot on with the issues and challenges I am facing daily. I do not take that lightly, being a Spiritual Christian, I don’t believe in happenstances. This could be the Spirit of Jesus speaking through Tina or not, however the case, I am definitely proceeding on with this journey.

Considering, these scriptures: “Kingdom of God is within us (Luke 17:21)”, and the scripture I lead in with at the beginning of this blog (John 1:1), my perspective has broadened. Jesus is the one who said the Kingdom is within us, so that means God is also within us. I’m not projecting check out John 14:20. So, who or what can separate us from Him, hmm? We are one! Therefore, when we are activated in the 5th Dimension (5D) that means when are operating on the same frequency as… LOVE and we all know God is…

Love, Peace, and Light

Queen Bee Healing 🐝👑🧘🏽‍♀️

 On another note:

I will continue to blog my Journals weekly. As daily proved a bit much for my current life and schedule. Truthfully, my spirit isn’t with it, I’ll blog when Spirit inclines because that’s when I do my best work.

“Forty Days & Forty Nights With Jesus” – Introduction

I’m a “Spiritual Christian”… literally and figuratively.

This isn’t a blog about the meaning of quadragesimal numbers or how Moses, of the Bible, was on Mount Sinai for 40 days and 40 nights (Genesis 32), not even about how Jesus fasted for 40 days and 40 nights before he was tempted (Matthew 4:2). However, it may posit a connection to the 40 days and 40 nights from the resurrection of Jesus to His ascension (Acts 1:3).

Nonetheless, this is about me, a journey Jesus challenged me to participate in (1 John 4:1-6).

Now, allow me to explain. 40 days and 40 nights is a series of YouTube videos posted and lead by Tina Spalding. Spalding, is a well known spiritual author and trance channeler. She claimed to have channeled many spirits, even celebrity spirits, but the most popular & controversial one is, Jesus. These videos are of her channeling Jesus, and through her he is guiding humanity through a period of transformation. This journey requires each participant to watch the stream of videos that are posted twice a day, morning and evening, as well as complete the first 40 lessons of “A Course of Miracles, 3rd Edition, published by The Foundation for Inner Peace, 2007. A book in which someone else has claimed to have channeled Jesus. Sounds real Matthew 24:5ish… but wait a minute there are many religious beings claiming that “Jesus told me to tell you…”

Think about that for a second…

Me, I’m a “Spiritual Christian” (a term I like to believe I came up with. Meaning, a believer and follower of Jesus that strives daily to become more like him, but not in a your typical “religious” manner, however, being tuned in & tapped in to the same Spirit that is in Jesus), literally and figuratively. Therefore, for the next 35 days (I already completed four days prior to this blog) I will commit to participate in this series and publicly journal my thoughts and experience.

I’ll be grouping days 1-4 together in one blog, and then individual days afterwards. *Edit – I’ll be grouping days 1-7 together then day 8 and so forth individually (I have a very active and demanding boss, my two year old daughter, so my life is dependent upon her days, I promise I will post more).

“Forty days and Forty Nights with Jesus” lead by Tina Spalding, (originally posted September 8, 2020, https://youtu.be/xsdPa0Mn7fo).

Love, Peace & Light


Here is some information about me. I am 36 years old, raised in San Jose California, however currently residing in Petal, Mississippi. A Lover, Mom, Daughter, Sister, and Spiritual Queen. Sharing my Love, Light and Gifts with humanity. Particularly shining light on these gifts: I have a BA in Complementary and Alternative Health, Certified Nutrition Advisor, Certified Reiki Healer (soon to be Master), and a Certified Meditation Guide. A main contributor to Divine Sisters – Kitchen & Essentials, a company my sister and I started in 2016. The company’s goal is to serve those in need of motivation, inspiration, and help in creating and maintaining a healthy lifestyle. We believe in a holistic lifestyle whereas the spirit, mind & body are one, therefore people should be treated as such. We share our personal journeys, the highs & lows (as we are still adventuring on our journeys), health & wellness tips, complementary & alternative medicines, therapies, remedies, a plethora of recipes, meal prep ideas (orders too, locally only), “InspoVibes” (meaning Inspirational Vibes, another word that I came up with, basically sharing our thoughts, memes & quotes) and all spiritual essentials such as candles, essential oil tinctures, rollers, Shea butter whipped body creams (in which most are homemade & organic), crystals for energetic healing and more! Yes, I had to “plug in” (meaning represent, didn’t come up with this term) and share our company information. We’ll have our grand re-launch on 2-1-21 (21, as in transformation, numerology). Here’s our page http://facebook.com/godnhealth please like and share.


(2007). “A Course of Miracles”. [3rd Edition]. The Foundation for Inner Peace. Mill Valley, CA.

Spalding, T. L., (2020, September 8). Channeling with Jesus – #1 Morning Session 40 days and 40 Nights Jesus. Retrieved from https://youtu.be/xsdPa0Mn7fohttps://youtu.be/xsdPa0Mn7fo

A Little Inspiration 

With all the twirls, spins, ups and downs in life we have to remember we are more than conquerors! It doesn’t matter: the circumstances, how you feel, what you think, we will get through it all.

Often times we forget as Christians that in midst of all we are facing we serve a Mighty God. Everything we are dealing with, God has planned our victory! We are fully equipped for whatever the enemy will throw at us.

Today I encourage you to cling to His Word and know without a doubt, All is well! 

So if you are struggling with weight loss and living a healthy lifestyle, guess what? God has planned your victory for that too. There is nothing too big or too small for Him. We often think that  weight loss is too minimal for Him. I beg the differ, food addiction is real, and it’s a spiritual battle that we face day to day. We need to seek His guidance and Wisdom in order for us to truly fight this war.

Seek Him, step out in faith, make changes, you will be victorious! 

Have a blessed day!